Hey everybody!
I just thought I would share a little revelation about this trip. You may know I am going to be taking a 2 week trip to Limerick Ireland this July and I am raising funds and prayers for that. And the more I pray and think about it the more I freak out, get excited, and then post it up here and share it with you guys!!!
The last thing I ever wanted to be, was a missionary. Lots of preachers get up and say how they wanted to stay home but once they crossed borders they just couldn't stop! So I was always scared to even leave the country for fear of being called when I really didn't want to. My desire has always been to go through Rhema Bible training College, like I have been, and graduate majoring in Youth ministry and Worship music. Then leave and either pursue youth ministry or continue to compose worship music! And that would be the plan, but God still has yet to show me what to do afterwards. And thats what I get for trying to plan ahead. Right now, this summer, he wants me to be a mini-missionary. So I will.
So does that mean it's really my own fault for going out there the first time? ...maybe. It's got to be the same deal! Pastors always say they went out and they got hooked! Maybe that's what happened to me too! But when I thought that, then I thought "So many people would die to cross that ocean just once in their lifetimes. And I'm going for a second time! And the First time was a miracle!" So really, I think when God calls us to something, I truly believe that he plans these things out way before we were even born. It's not just a random thing you will catch if you take a once missionary trip (which actually, I strongly suggest everyone does) Going out there doesn't change you into a permanent missionary. If he wants you to do that then he will, but he may just want you to experience the world and see how he's working in it!! But I think He meant for me to go to Ireland the first time. Because he knew what I would see there, and he knew what I would love there.
And God knew I would leave my heart in Ireland. And would have to go back to get it.
And it sounds cheesy and I've said it before, but it's true.
It's like....I feel that now that I've realized I need to stop planning so far ahead and start focusing on NOW. THIS TIME IS SO CRUCIAL!!!! And what I'm bringing Ireland this time is way more than I had before. When I went before, I had a passion for God. A Burning fire that followed me everywhere I went! But now that I've gone to Bible college and I make preparations to go back, I'm different. Not only do I have that Fiery passion for God, to want more, to want to learn more, and to want to see him more, but now I have the craziest itch to just SPREAD IT! IT'S INSANE!!! IT'S ONE OF THOSE IMPOSSIBLE ITCHES YOU CANT REACH AND ITS JUST DRIVING YOU INSANE!!!!!!
It's like the fire in me is building up so much in me and I can hardly keep it in any longer! When I get to Ireland I'm gonna give that passion to all of those kiddo's A hundred times over! Every second that I can!!! Right now, that is my mission. Get that fire to those kids, and change their lives! They don't have to grow up and face the hard times alone! God was there for me growing up, he can be there for them too.
Anyways. I'm just super pumped. Keep those kids in your prayers that they will take it all in while we are there. Thanks Guys!
-Spreading God's fire!!!
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